Today has been a challenging day because my anxiety is heightened. I woke up slightly anxious and as the day progressed and with certain interactions it increased significantly. This made me scared, but more than anything sad that I’m taking steps back, which let’s face it no one wants to do. I got flashbacks of how I have felt the last several months and like a protective mechanism, my anxiety elevated to signal that there was potential danger in the horizon, but there wasn’t any danger.
One thing I am trying to embrace is that anxiety is a natural response to potential danger, so some anxiety is healthy; however, heightened anxiety with no potential threat is not good. It has taken me several hours to work through the anxiety and in doing so I remembered what I learned this morning “Progress is movement (not linear) like a dance where you dance taking a few steps forward, sideways, and at times back.” Now, isn’t this the truth. This has been my journey thus far, but I needed someone to tell me it was okay and that this is what healing looks like. We often times want healing to come instantly or when it comes to stay for the long haul. It’s our human nature to want total relief from any pain or discomfort, but the fact is, we will encounter it in our lifetime. It’s part of the human experience.
So, as I navigate this dance 🙂 I reach out to others for support because we are not meant to do life alone. I have learned to reach out to people and not second guess myself for fear that I am bothering them. You’ll be surprised with how open people can be to sharing their time and love. It’s a humbling experience that has taught me to ask for help and to reciprocate it. Today, I reached out to my mom, sis, and friend for support. While listening to my friend provide advice and support the Lord led me to pray for both of us. This was touching because I was so vulnerable on the call and yet in that vulnerable state God nudged me to pray for us.
The bible says, “For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.” – Matthew 18:20. Leave it to Jesus to pull me back on my feelings and help me lift my cares to him in prayer. It’s just like Jesus to give us strength when we need it.
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